T.T

What the hell was that for? I din know it was that .......OMFG!!! After reading it, I really don't know what am I. Maybe i shouldn't ask for it. Self torturing again. Sorry i cant promise you what you asked me, i cried. I guess it's still early. Hope you wont read this post. I just wanted to write it out and remind me of today.

But,

Love you still dear.

Haiz~

Today had a outing with my friends and her. Wasn't very happy actually but the only thing that makes me happy is that i get the chance to see her 1 last time before she go for her hellish NS training. Haiz~ Nothing much happen anyway. And we watched Sherlock Holmes. It was quite a interesting movie. The movie is okay but the seat is bad. I hate the handler and the small size of every seat. I can barely cross my leg and there is like a boundaries when i wanted to hold her hand. I hope the way i hold your hand wont make u feel uncomfortable. And i hope you will like the small gift i gave you. It will be a big gift when u are safety return from NS. After the movie i have to get back to college as soon as possible. And that's the end of the story.

Simply happy~

Today i went to ucsi around 10am and wait for my dear to arrive. She arrived around 12 and i was sitting alone in auditorium doing revision for my supp paper. After studying for an hour i went to CC to play some game and hope to met any of my friend. What a surprise...... I lost interest in the game i use to play every time i went to the cc after the long holiday.

Dear arrived, but we still have to wait Jackie. Wait for her class end at 2pm. Wait and wait and wait........... She arrived and we went to leisure together with my dear friends car. I feel not so well when i arrived in leisure because of her daring driving skill. We went to 1 restaurant similar to wong kok style de restaurant ( I forgot the name because it's written in chinese). Food over there was just okay for me but the environment kinda romantic i guess. The food over there was killing me actually. I mean the price. I think i won't be going there unless my dear wants to go there.

After our lunch we went back to college to finish the unfinished stuff of my dear 1. Then we had donuts together. [ Dear the way you eat donut is kinda cute for me ] Then we went to ktm by her car. She gave me a silver box before i went out from the car. And she ask me not to open it until i went back home. Then i say i promise but in my heart, i know i can't keep my promise XD. I gave her a kiss on the cheek and went to the station. Once i sat on the bench i start to open the box and read the letter she wrote for me. I wont be telling anyone, What is the the letter content~ But i can tell it is full of her love in it. After reading it, I kept on smiling non stop for some times like sozai. I miss you so much and love you even more now dear. I will wait for you to come back from hell. I will keep my other promise you have listed down. Love you dear. Muackx~

9th January

The day we officially become a couple....... We went to the garden and watch ''Wild Dogs'' together. Just the 2 of us. I never had a date with a girl alone in my life and you are the 1st 1. I had difficulties that day of meeting you actually. But i manage to overcome it. I almost had a heart attack when i 1st saw you. I was so freaking nervous and feeling kinda uneasy. But when u start talking to me, i feel cooled down. It's like listening to melody when u start talking. And i don't want to talk about the threat cause it's kinda embarrass =(. The movie is kinda funny but i don't think it's a right movie for couple to watch and i feel kinda weird confess inside the cinema watching a comedy movie. But still i try my best to find a good timing to tell her i loved her and ask her to be my girlfriend. It's cold inside and i try to hold her hand to transfer my heat to her. In the end she felt warm and i felt cold. We were holding hands until the movie ends. Actually in the middle of the movie i wanted to go to the bathroom but i try to hold up until the movie finish. I just don't want to let go of your gentle hand. After the movie, we went to had our lunch at tenpayaki. It was my 1st time to went in a Japanese store other then sushi king. She share 2 story with me inside the store while waiting for the dish to ready. The 1st story i think it's okay to listen but the second story i think it's a funny story although u say it's very sad. Maybe the way you tell the story make me laugh. I'm not a cold blooded creature la...... After we finish our meal, she had to went back quickly. I wanted to spend more time with her but........... Anyway i will remember 9th january. I hope that you will remember that day as much as i do too.

Love from xenuz to,
You

= )

Here's my free time to start posting again. Actually i don't know what I'm busy about. During the holiday, I'm staying at home all day long. Nothing really happen that makes me happy or different..... except chatting with you. Lots of thing had happen during the long holiday but i don't know you will consider that as many. There are misunderstanding and misjudgment on us. But things work out very easily cause we understand each other. I remember i got lots of apology to tell you but i forgot what i have done wrong. But the very mistake i had ever made is i made you as my stepsister. And this decision i think i made u very disappointed and upset. Which make you decide something that you don't wanna decide. But now i know it's all over~ Things have change back to what it should be. You don't have to make unnecessary decision anymore, because you have just made a right 1. Thank you for giving me this chance. This once in a life time chance to take care of you. Sound like i'm proposing? But it's not XD. Thats it for today and i wont neglect this blog again because it reminds me of you and it is where we know each other.


Love,
Xenuz

I lie~

There is nothing bad but good about you. Maybe i still don't realize yet or maybe you are just perfect.

New family.....

All my post is all about those sad sad stuff but this is different. This post is full of happiness for me. What is it? Is that i have a new sister. Name vivian ng. She not my real sister obviously by her surname. But i wish she can be my sister. Aiyooo i say until she's that good. She sure get cocky after reading it. Anyway she's really a nice girl. I dunno whether she's pretty anot because i dunno how a girl consider a pretty girl XD. I love chatting with her, it feels like she understand how i feel but not fully and can catch up what i'm talking about. Haiz i felt regret for not become so close to her at first. Soon she's going to different college and we wont be able to meet again since u are busy with your college stuff i will to. Before college startt i wish i can hang out with you more. And SIS..... Dun use my copyrighted word on other people. I'm glad that i met you vivian.